All the Stregth that I Have

Do you know that I never in years thinking I can do IVF because of financial issues? First, I don't make much money with my job, we do okay, but since Kevin in school full time, we have to really have to be careful of what we spend. Between payments for house, car loan, utilities, child support, student loans and yada-yada...we only can get by. Thankfully I have a side income from my online biz that started as hobby. But again, means I have two jobs which I took both seriously.

You can say I am a very hardworking person, I am very determine in what I do. Probably because I become so independent since I was 12 years old. My dad passed away when I was about 11.5 years old. We really close, I miss him dearly even until today. The time that we spent together was short, but there are so many beautiful memories about him, my dad really care about me. He always there when I need him and really supportive.

When I was 12 I got an offer from a boarding school. In M'sia, boarding schools are not for 'bad' kids. Boarding schools in M'sia means you're selected from so many students in M'sia, means you're best of the best academically. They grooms you to become highly professional and mostly becomes Doctors, engineers and others. You have to have A's in all subjects otherwise you in trouble. For five years I was in the boarding school. Then I went to college for 3.5 years. So most of my young age I was away from my mom and siblings. We only met few times a month. I paid my college tuitions with my own money, I worked every semester break as a Cashier at the mall or sell cookies to friends. Three months before graduated, I already got a job, the company willing to wait until I finished my school. I feel bless.

I am very different from my sibling. I love being adventure. When I do something, I am serious about it. I don't stop trying. I know what it felt when I failed, and it never stopped me to keep trying. Probably all these that helping me still going through with this journey of having a child.

I've been travelled to many places. Some places that I never think I will go. I went to Canada, drove from south to north, to Sarajevo just few years after war, to Germany, to Korea and many more. And finally I am in the US with my husband who I love dearly :).

I will put the IVF cost in details when I have time this week.